It is not just a matter ... - Dhamma by Ajahn Jayasāro
It is not just a matter of knowing the theory, knowing the method, that is important. Of course, knowing the exact means by which we can let go the defilements that are fuelling our suffering is essential. But it is equally important to maintain the will to apply that knowledge.
Sometimes, we can be blind to the truth that one part of us does not want to be free. Maybe we believe that we deserve the suffering, or want to punish ourself for past misdeeds, or fear that letting go of the suffering would lead to even greater pain. As a result, something inside us holds onto our suffering as if it was a precious thing.
We all have the capacity to abandon the causes of suffering. But we must be utterly sincere. We have to recognize that there is nothing whatsoever noble, intelligent or appropriate about mental pain. It is completely worthless. Let it go.
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